“nubwithachub” replied to my “what we can’t have” entry.
It’s been too long.
This fixation and worry that leaves your heart so heavy.
The smile you should for every reason have is absent.
Everyone’s so dear, both far and near.
A feeling we all share when we laugh.
But I take from your words, that you have tears and fears too.
She can’t take those, either, away from you.
She can’t do anything more than you can.
So what do you do with them if all goes to plan?
The smile I want to see, only you can create.
My friend, love is free, like it or not.
And if it’s not free then that’s not what you’ve got.
Why is it that we must let go of everything in order to live?
I saw you today so happy and taken. I was surprised. Not by you two. But by the first feeling that hit me. It wasn’t jealousy or malice, it was happiness that you were truly happy. I know I can finally let you go. It’s been so long… years… since I felt free.
Maybe I can finally tell you about this blog.
“Are you playing hide and seek? Cause a girl like you is hard to find.”
“It’ll be worth it, to be with someone who knows your worth.”
How fickle I am.
I really hope he doesn’t break your heart.
Because I want to be there for you.
But at the same time. I wish he would.
I’m so jealous. I’m horrible.
What we can’t have.
It’s been too long.
Since I’ve seen you so careless, your smile so bright and your heart so light.
The smile that I wish I could create, it cuts right through me, you radiate.
You’ve always been so dear, I can’t explain why I want you near.
It’s that feeling that I have, when I hear you laugh.
There’s a fear, when I see you in tears.
I can’t take away your tears. I can only absorb them.
I can’t take away your fears. I can only stand by you and fight them.
I can’t take away your doubts. I can only believe in you.
That smile that I want to see, I can’t make.
That feeling in your stomach when he calls you, I can’t cause.
That feeling in your heart when he holds you, I can’t even imagine what it’s like to hold you.
Why is it that we always want…
We’re friends?
So I hear you’re trying to get a gift for some guy you always complain about just because he gave you $100 for your birthday.
You haven’t given me a birthday gift for the majority of years we’ve been friends. Christmas too, I know I haven’t missed giving you a gift.
I’ve given you way more than $100.
I don’t know, this is probably self-centered, but it’s also a truthful observation.
I wish you didn’t take things for granted. FuckIhateGuiltTripsSorry.
